Generally, I am not the type of person to tell you what I think but when you think about, none of us are. Sure the ones with no opinion and the need to draw attention to themselves would blab about what they think and in most most cases, it usually what they think they think. 

We like to give off the impression that we have it under control, nobody likes to feel that sense of weakness to not be in driver’s seat of their life but in order to get this you have to be selfish. I write this as a selfish person, one that is choosing herself. Happiness is always your’s it does not matter what you need to do sometimes, just choose your own happiness. At the end of every day, whether or not you fall asleep next to someone, you close your own eyes and for as long as you are sleeping, you are alone. We all let people into our lives and that is perfectly human, it’s all the attachments that we make and the stupid mental impression that you make to yourself that you cannot live without that person that’s where we screw ourselves! Be stronger than that, be happy with yourself and embrace keeping yourself company, it’s really not that bad. 

I want to talk to somebody that understands me and that will not judge me based on the experiences that i share with them, somebody that will never utter a word of what i say to anybody else that is curious about my story and most of all, i want this person to care and not give me a reaction based on their selfish thoughts that would alter any decision (even a decision of thought) on them. Then when i made a list of candidates, crossing out as i thought, i ended up with me. Just me. And i know that i could trust me. 

People say the word ‘vanity’ as though its a curse but it is not, self-esteem and bit of confidence goes a long way but genuinely loving yourself can keep you going on that long way. You can be your own rock! You know yourself better than anyone else, who cares about the people in your way, Its you, yourself and you. If you are fortunate, you get some good people to be around you and you cannot take them for granted though i guarantee you will at some time in your life. 

I have to cut this entry short, i’ll use the app. continue or just start fresh, there are a lot of things that i need to get out.

The following is my opinion and i was not aiming for any individual publicly. I trust that you will act with the same reasoning that i did while composing and not take offence. Any relation made to you and the following is obviously a guilty coincidence.

Annoyed? Yeah i guess you could say that i am because there is something that i wanna discuss and when i say discuss, i am going to give a fair warning and let you know that not only do i feel like letting this out. I am feeling bias. 

People talk and in talking and communicating via any means people share information and stories and they talk about events that happened to them. Judging that 90% of the time these events involve other people who each have their own opinion of the said event, how can you really tell if that one person is telling the truth?

Most of the time, when a conversation that took place is being relayed to a third party fragments of information are left out or considered “not important” even when the unnecessary info could have been the turning point in the third party’s mind but in any case it is omitted. Being a person that has developed a strange trust pattern, I personally do not trust people. Do not get me wrong. I trust my mum and uncle and some times foolishly enough, myself but other people, no matter how much i love or care or know them, i do not give a hundred percent of my trust unless i give into my intuition which is scarcely. 

So when a person is telling a story and this will be in the case that i know the person they are talking about, there is a slim or 50% chance that i believe them. No matter how convincing their version of the story is I do not give them full trust because I was not there! and unless there was a witness that is not the story-teller’s best buddy, i do not believe that you are telling me the truth. And you know when you really want to trust someone and you are being strict on the ‘fact’ that they are right, then the epic moment of utter confusion hits you when you talk to the other involved person and their version of the event was totally different. So why trust one person completely? 

Then you know what i hate? when people make you think that they are right and the other person was lying and they have no idea why they would say that. Come on! Get over it. I was not around, i did not hear or see what happened so why the hell does my approval mean so much to you?! i bet that half of the people that they tell that story to probably is as stupid as them and goes along with them and then relays the story to others and that is the flight of rumours and the genesis of social drama. Why does society like these things so much? it appears as though they just wake up in the morning waiting to see what everyone in their circle does all while maintaining their ‘cool’ image. Seriously? is this really what teenage and pre-adult is life coming to? 

It is sad and very aggravating when you hear things that you did when you never did them and when you discover that you went somewhere when you don’t even know where that is or when you were wearing something that you don’t own and let us never forget when you are with that kid that hates you girl/boyfriend and things were looking ‘too friendly’! Stay out of my life! Please nobody and i mean NOBODY finds that appreciative. It’s plain annoying, immature and down right stupid. Now the thing is we all do it at some time in every year that passes and that could easily be blamed on human emotion but anybody with an ounce of common sense can understand when to let it go and be logical and then act with reason that is why we have a developed brain. That can make a model if you would of a situation and come up with solutions that can derive a suitable conclusion on how the event would carry out. Everybody can do this though, some better than others but when you put a little effort into it with a bit of information or the ability to improvise and the most important ingredient, common sense (no surprise there) it can be done. I reckon if every capable human being does this at least once a day, the world will be a more functional place. And for the individual, their relationship may be saved, their life may be saved anything is possible with this and I think that everybody should make an attempt to give it go. I promise that it will not hurt……. all of you. Some of you, i am sorry to say that the chances of you succeeding in this can be nearly impossible. 

Which brings me to saying that some people and this would be the group that begins re-telling the original story and in re-telling, rewriting i want to make a direct address to you whether you think that i am talking to you or not. the last part of my previous sentence was to ensure that the group that i targeted knew that i as well as most people know what you deny the fact that you are gossiping, mindless fool that thinks they are all that! and now the main message.                For one minute maybe one hour, look at your self and think about your life and i mean just your life alone. then incorporate your friends and ask yourself, why do i like these people and are they right for me at this point in the game that i call life? Then add the logic and say why do i talk about other people? and why is their life important to me. and then you might (when i say might i mean hopefully) you will realize a few things. the first thing being that those people that you make so important, mean nothing to you. Their life does not affect you and it cannot change you or make you a better person, make you happy or smarter or better-looking. All you do by in a sense idolizing these people is feed their ego and give them reasons to be vain and popularity. Because you are so jealous of them, they have a better social life even when they don’t see it or acknowledge it. Not all the things that you hear and say about those people are true at all. Chances are 89% of is a lie! So do yourself a favour and drink a glass of dignity and shut up! Just drop it and leave the people to live their life and you live yours. 

Right so now that i got a bit of all of that off my chest. How’s the weather around part of town or earth? :)

                                                                         Amy Cokeymonster :)